You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Three years ago today I was standing next to my mothers hospital bed singing and saying goodbye. My heart feels so heavy sometimes with a deep kind of loss. I lost my best friend. My one true 'confidante'. Someone who wasn't only my best friend, but someone who poured her life into mine every day, even when I rejected or didn't appreciate it... She was my mom. As I write this there are tears rolling down my cheeks. Some tears of sorrow, but so many more tears of joy. I know she is in a wonderful place. A place she would never want to leave. And I am happy because of this...
When the world looses a loved one, it is such a great loss! The world knows not where their loved one is now, nor do they know or understand why this has happened. But when we, God's children lose someone close to us, there is only VICTORY! Jesus has WON! He has CONQUERED death! Jesus has made something so horrible, and devastating into something so glorious, and beautiful! There is no question in my mind why God took my mom. I know God's sovereign plan for my life is perfectly formed... "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 I may not know God's reasons for taking my mom, but I do know that His plan for my life is perfect, and for this reason I can rejoice in His decision in taking her home. I can give Him thanks for giving me this path to walk. For it is the path He gave to me to bring glory and honer to Him. "Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious that of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ." 1 Peter 1:6-7 All I want is that everyone I come into contact with, will see Christ's glory through this "tragedy". I don't want them to see pain, suffering, and devastation. I want them to see joy and victory through Jesus.
No matter what trial we face. No matter what persecutions we go through. There will always be victory through Jesus, and God WILL be glorified through it! Praise God that He can work ALL things together for good! Praise God that He loves us! And Praise God that He will NEVER let us go!!!
